Sorry for spamming you with my journals X(
I have been doing a lot of drawing lately which is fine, but it's more a quantity than quality thing I have lately which annoys me. I'm just not getting in quite right like I used to, I'm trying to get out a properly finished picture, full colour, shading, maybe even a BG... something that looks finished
. There's a lot I am still learning but I know I'm capable of doing it, I've done it before, I even know what I want to do in my head, but whenever I sit there with my tablet or sketch book I just freeze over and nothing ends up happening and I end up throwing a huge sketch dump spam at you guys
. I just at least want people to see that I can do proper finished stuff. I am also having a lack of shifts at work so I'm kinda stuck with nothing interesting to do so that may have something to do with it. But that's not the point.
I'm not in competition with other people, I really couldn't care less, I'm not trying to out do other peoples work. I'm trying to do better than what I'm doing now (omg that sounded so mushy I'm so sorry haha). Many people would probably say something along the lines of stop being so self critical if they were to meet me face to face, but truth is you have to have some degree of self criticism so you push a little harder. Which I suppose goes for everything I guess but I'm not a very good life coach. And so thats what Im doing, but I'm getting extremely annoyed as I'm not getting there at the pace I'd like. Or I can see what I want to do but don't have (or can afford) the tools to do it.
It's time...FOR COFFEE AND ME-GORENG NOODLES AND FRESHLY CAUGHT SPANISH MACKEREL.